Meri Brown is mourning the lack of her brother Adam.
On Friday, the Sister Wives star, 52, introduced that her brother died on Thursday “simply 2 months wanting his fifty fifth birthday.”
Subsequent to a carousel of photographs of her and Adam on Instagram, she defined that he texted her “about 5 weeks in the past,” explaining that he had made the choice to cease his chemotherapy remedy “as a result of speedy development of his most cancers & deterioration of his physique.”
“I’ll transfer ahead residing, loving, forgiving, remembering,” she wrote. “The connection I had with him taught me many issues, and I’ve little doubt will proceed to show me issues. I stay open to these classes & look ahead to them with anticipation.”
Meri mirrored on when she first realized Adam’s most cancers was terminal and “that he doubtlessly had solely weeks or months to dwell,” saying that the information “hit me like a ton of bricks.”
“After his passing, I’d be the one remaining from the unique 4,” she recalled. “We misplaced Teresa, our sister simply youthful than me, to most cancers in 2006. We misplaced our oldest brother Marc to coronary heart points in 2015. Now Adam to a different kind of most cancers. That leaves me.”
“Now, I perceive that it is not simply me,” she continued. “I nonetheless have 3 youthful sisters with us, the 7 of us simply mother’s children. Plus many different siblings from our massive household construction.”
Meri went on to clarify how she will’t fairly perceive why his loss of life, and it subsequently “leaving me because the one remaining of the unique 4,” is hitting her so strongly.
“The one 4 that had been born in CA and have recollections of our younger childhood there? The one 4 that had been in existence earlier than we moved to Utah the place mother & dad started their lives as a plural household?” she wrote. “Possibly as a result of we had been born in nearer succession, with solely 1-1/2 to 2 years between us all? Even nonetheless, Elaine, baby quantity 5, was solely 3 years later.”
“I do not know what it’s, however there’s at all times been one thing in regards to the unique 4. Not higher, simply completely different. Not nearer, simply completely different,” she added. “Possibly I am going to determine it out sometime, possibly I will not. Solely time will inform.”
Concluding her tribute, Meri vowed to recollect her brother “with honor, kindness, & love.” In a candy last notice, Meri made a nod to certainly one of their inside jokes. “PS Adam, I’ve the final phrase. And that’s REGARDLESS 💙” she wrote.
It has been a difficult 12 months for Meri, who introduced she was ending her 32-year marriage to husband Kody Brown in December 2022. (The revelation got here after Christine Brown and Kody introduced their cut up in November 2021 after greater than 25 years of marriage, and Kody and his third spouse Janelle Brown additionally confirmed they had been separated.)
Since then, the TLC star’s breakup has been unfolding in entrance of cameras on Sister Wives. Off the present Meri has been vocal on social media about feeling like she’s in a “difficult place.”
“I’ve form of been in a spot lately the place I have been permitting the opinions and the judgments and actions of others to form of get in my head,” she shared along with her followers in a TikTok video in June. “And it is form of introduced me to a bit little bit of a difficult place.”
“So what I do in these moments is come to a spot that brings me peace,” she added earlier than panning the digital camera to a grove of bushes. “And I simply enable myself to really feel the emotions with no judgment for myself.”
Sister Wives airs Sundays at 10 p.m. ET on TLC.